Summary of the past year:

Hm, this place isn’t at all what I thought it would be…
I love teaching, whee!
Man, I don’t get along with any of the people here.
They really won’t let me work on the type of music I’m into…
If it weren’t for teaching, I’d go crazy!
I hate this place, ugh!
SEE, I can be successful withOUT your rubbish!
I hate this, I’m leaving!
*mental breakdown, cry, sob, panic*
It figures the one thing that gets me going here is an ENGLISH class.
*illness every two weeks*
Dazed and exhausted, but back on my feet…
*massive allergy attacks*
End of year 1, hooray!

Two weeks of massive escapism…
I have a job as a grant assistant in the music library, wow!
Holy shit, what do you MEAN I got into this residency?!
*gets killed by end of year 1 review meeting*
Residency time, I hope I don’t completely suck…
This residency is awesome, I love everyone here!
Wow, I’m still so socially awkward, everyone here is much cooler than me.
I love art, fuck music, music is so limiting!
DOWN WITH THE MAN, BITCHES!
FUCK THIS SCHOOL! There’s no way I’m going to stay and suffer through comps!
*starts researching other universities, looking for MFAs in visual arts*
I really hope this year doesn’t suck as much as last year.
*continues researching other programs*

Beginning of year 2, here’s hoping I don’t get kicked out…
Wow, this year is already much better than last.
I actually get along with the two new grad students this year, amazing.
My advisor this year is awesome and honest with me, respect!
Wow, I really like collaborating with this person!
Man, I’ve been invited to improv several times and I love it.
I get free health insurance here…I’m getting allergy shots now! Thanks, insurance!
These classes this semester are actually really interesting.
*looks for other programs less and less…*
Hm, I’m not so sure we have the money to move. What if Kevin can’t get a job where we go?
I’m really going to miss all of our friends if we leave.
I’m so involved in extra-curricular stuff, it’ll be hard to withdraw from that.
Maybe I can work for change here if I stay…
*thinks less and less about leaving…*
When I do my comps, I’ll do this…
When I get to my dissertation, I think I’ll try this…
When we renew our lease, we should do this…

…we’re not leaving, are we.

Well. That’s that, then.

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